I can remember driving down with the boys to our ultrasound appointment. We were to meet Matt at the hospital and find out what our third little would be together as family. On the way down there it hit me.. After months of wanting another boy, or so thinking that was what I wanted, it just hit me. I can remember thinking "Try not to be upset when they say boy." What??? Whoa hold up, I thought I wanted a boy.. Funny how ones brain can try so hard to protect the heart that it can actually lead you to believe a lie. Deep down somewhere inside I did want a girl. I wanted to experience having a daughter in this lifetime. I wanted to know the special feeling between a mama and her gal.
That drive down there was extremely confusing. Here I thought I was okay-even happy-with having another boy.. and now all of these strange emotions were coming up inside like a burning ball trying to jump out of my throat. So, we met Matt and headed in for our appointment. And to our surprise the tech was 99% sure that we would be welcoming a girl into our family. Matt and I were in complete shock. I can remember walking down the hallway of the hospital after our appointment speechless. We seriously said nothing.. then when we got to the doorway Matt looked at me and spoke two words "Holy shit" and I was all "I know" and then just as we got outside each holding a hand of our boys we kind of did this jump up and down we can make girls dance. And Matt really did kind of shout it. We can make girls.
And make a girl we did. The coolest little girl ever in fact. Sweet Elliana Mae.
|The day she was born the only sunflower in our yard bloomed. |
So today and everyday I am loving my gal. (and my guys of course!) I am blessed. We are one big blessed family. And this littlest little of ours fit right in. She was meant for us, and us her. Our little sunflower.